Saturday, January 23, 2010

Why Blog?

I have always enjoyed reading blogs. Always so neat to see how other people live their lives, what habits they have, and getting a glimpse of their walk with the Lord is usually so inspiring. So, I thought I would start a blog. From day 1, I just haven't had much to say, and certainly nothing on a consistent basis. Then I realized why my attempts at blogging were so dismal - the cold, honest truth is that for the most part, all my life consists of are broken promises, wishful thinking and all those shoulda's, coulda's, woulda's.

I have been married almost 22 years and have 3 daughters and 1 grandchild and so the fruit of what I did during the first 15-20 years of my marriage has now sprung forth and is evident for all to see. It really is true that what you sow you will reap. The sad thing about that is that by the time you start to reap, you can't stop and replant. The seeds are already sown.

Now to my children, when they hear me say something like that, they instantly take it personally, and think I don't like them. Well, I guess they would be right at times about that. I don't like everything they have done in their lives, but I love them. I guess though that even though the oldest one is almost 21, none of them are old enough yet to understand that there is a difference between liking what they do and loving their person.

I had hopes that after such a rough year in 2009, that 2010 would be better. I really didn't think it could get much worse, but how naive was that??? And true, things could still be a whole lot worse than what they are, but where I am walking right now, it is a very dark and sad place.

I do not plan to blog anymore. It is a total waste of space and of anyone's time who has read it. If you learn anything from my life, let it be what NOT to do.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Half Gone

Well half of the first month of the new year is already gone and I am just now getting around to blogging. Seems that some things just never change. LOL

I have had a very rocky start to this new year. I kind of had a feeling getting ready for 2010 that things wouldn't be great right off the bat, but little did I know just exactly what kind of things I would get hit with. This past week was probably the roughest for me in that I really let it all overwhelm me and I was having a very hard time struggling to get beyond that, but this morning I awoke determined to not let it beat me down anymore. Sure, times are hard and probably gonna get harder. I can either choose to focus on wondering how I will survive the harder times that are sure to come or I can choose to focus on my relationship with Christ who will be the one holding my hand and seeing me through the hard times that come.

I know every year most people set goals or resolutions for that year and I am just like everyone else. I write them down and dream big, but generally by the time the year rolls to an end I find I did not accomplish even one of the lofty goals I had and actually for the past few years I haven't even bothered to write them down new - I just recycle the ones from the previous year. How sad is that??? So this year I have decided that I am just going to pick a few things I want to work on (no more than 3 I think) and focus on those. Something I am just starting to learn is that it is not about how "much" one accomplishes, it is about what you learn in the process of accomplishing, if that makes sense?

So, to anyone who stumbles across this blog post, I challenge you to just pick no more than 3 things to work on this year and just focus on those and see just how much working on those 3 things changes multiple things about your life.