Saturday, January 23, 2010

Why Blog?

I have always enjoyed reading blogs. Always so neat to see how other people live their lives, what habits they have, and getting a glimpse of their walk with the Lord is usually so inspiring. So, I thought I would start a blog. From day 1, I just haven't had much to say, and certainly nothing on a consistent basis. Then I realized why my attempts at blogging were so dismal - the cold, honest truth is that for the most part, all my life consists of are broken promises, wishful thinking and all those shoulda's, coulda's, woulda's.

I have been married almost 22 years and have 3 daughters and 1 grandchild and so the fruit of what I did during the first 15-20 years of my marriage has now sprung forth and is evident for all to see. It really is true that what you sow you will reap. The sad thing about that is that by the time you start to reap, you can't stop and replant. The seeds are already sown.

Now to my children, when they hear me say something like that, they instantly take it personally, and think I don't like them. Well, I guess they would be right at times about that. I don't like everything they have done in their lives, but I love them. I guess though that even though the oldest one is almost 21, none of them are old enough yet to understand that there is a difference between liking what they do and loving their person.

I had hopes that after such a rough year in 2009, that 2010 would be better. I really didn't think it could get much worse, but how naive was that??? And true, things could still be a whole lot worse than what they are, but where I am walking right now, it is a very dark and sad place.

I do not plan to blog anymore. It is a total waste of space and of anyone's time who has read it. If you learn anything from my life, let it be what NOT to do.

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