Well, I'm not really sure why I even bother to keep a blog. I certainly do not have the ability to keep it up or even come up with anything interesting to say. Which I guess is why I also don't have many "followers" either - lol.
I feel constantly weary. Part of it is physical as I am not in great shape, but I believe most of it is spiritual. I am just worn out. I am tired of the consequences of my own personal disobedience, I am tired of suffering second hand from the consequences of disobedience my family members are enduring, I am tired of Satan dogging my heels every where I turn. I am tired of the church being so worldly that you can't tell where the world ends and the church begins. I am tired of the ineffectiveness of the church because of their love affair with the world. I am tired of longing for something different, yet never being able to find it. I am weary of feeling like a failure every day of my life.
While I do try to encourage myself by reading Scriptures and reminding myself that the "joy of the Lord is my strength", I can't help but tell you that more often than not what my heart is sliently (and sometimes not so silently) crying out is this: "Even so, come quickly Lord Jesus!" I believe that I am not the only one who is worn down and weary of this world we are living in. Even our earth, I believe, is crying out to God for His return.
Until then, I can only keep on putting one foot in front of the other and hoping that I can overcome the wearyness good enough that I can be a witness to others. For it is a sure thing, one day (and maybe very soon) our Lord is returning and I want to be found ready and I want all my family to be ready too, as well as my friends.
Lord, give me your strength and your energy to rise above the wearyness and to soar like an Eagle until your return!
Monday, October 25, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
A Week Gone Already?!?!?!
Well, despite my goal of blogging more, I have managed to let a week get by me. Life is never dull around my home and there is always something to get in the way of my best intentions. Right now the heat we are experiencing is unreal and the best place to be is under an A/C vent. I am very thankful for our central air in our home and for the unit in my office, though I am not a fan of the electric bill that comes with it. LOL I just keep reminding myself that in January I will be wishing for this heat. :)
The past few days I have been trying to work on an area in my life that I know God wants me to work on. It is found in the book of James.
The past few days I have been trying to work on an area in my life that I know God wants me to work on. It is found in the book of James.
James 1:19-25 (Contemporary English Version)Sounds simple enough, doesn't it? But I find myself really struggling with all of it. I am not very slow at getting angry or speaking and I don't even think I am that great of a listener. But because this is on my mind so much I know it is an area God is really asking me to improve on. How can I expect my children to be obedient or submissive to authority if I am not setting the example? I am confident though that if I seek with my whole heart to apply these Scriptures to my life that God will be faithful and give me the grace (power and will to do) to be victorious in this area.
Hearing and Obeying
19My dear friends, you should be quick to listen and slow to speak or to get angry. 20If you are angry, you cannot do any of the good things that God wants done. 21You must stop doing anything immoral or evil. Instead be humble and accept the message that is planted in you to save you.
22Obey God's message! Don't fool yourselves by just listening to it. 23If you hear the message and don't obey it, you are like people who stare at themselves in a mirror 24and forget what they look like as soon as they leave. 25But you must never stop looking at the perfect law that sets you free. God will bless you in everything you do, if you listen and obey, and don't just hear and forget.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Life At Warp Speed
Wow! These last 2 days have been crazy! Our oldest daughter who just recently graduated from nursing school and landed a full-time job purchased her first "new to her" car yesterday. It is a beautiful new car and we are so happy that she finally has a "nice" car. She has literally worn out her other car, but PTL it got her through college!
She actually lives almost 2 hours away from us and due to some miscommunication, I ended up driving her younger sister up there thinking that the plan was for us to spend the night there. That didn't work out so we drove back home after a very hurried shopping time and then discovered that the title to the "old" car was needed by our daughter so back we went early this morning. I did get to take advantage of the 20% off sale that Mardel's was having on homeschool materials before we had to hurry back home though.
Before leaving this morning, I took a minute to pull out a devotional book and read what was for today's date. The title was "One Day at a Time". Felt appropriate to me. The scripture was from 2 Samuel 22:3 and it says: "My God, my Rock, in Him will I take refuge; my Shield and the Horn of my salvation; my Stronghold and my Refuge, my Savior--You save me from violence.
Life feels like it comes at me most of the time at warp speed, but I love how God never fails to show me that no matter what comes my way or how fast it comes at me, He is the one who shields me and protects me and I can always find a refuge in Him.
She actually lives almost 2 hours away from us and due to some miscommunication, I ended up driving her younger sister up there thinking that the plan was for us to spend the night there. That didn't work out so we drove back home after a very hurried shopping time and then discovered that the title to the "old" car was needed by our daughter so back we went early this morning. I did get to take advantage of the 20% off sale that Mardel's was having on homeschool materials before we had to hurry back home though.
Before leaving this morning, I took a minute to pull out a devotional book and read what was for today's date. The title was "One Day at a Time". Felt appropriate to me. The scripture was from 2 Samuel 22:3 and it says: "My God, my Rock, in Him will I take refuge; my Shield and the Horn of my salvation; my Stronghold and my Refuge, my Savior--You save me from violence.
Life feels like it comes at me most of the time at warp speed, but I love how God never fails to show me that no matter what comes my way or how fast it comes at me, He is the one who shields me and protects me and I can always find a refuge in Him.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
New Directions (And NO this is not a post about the show Glee!)
For so long now I have dreamed of being a "blogger". I have made several attempts at it but for a variety of reasons I just haven't ever achieved it. I do think about it a lot and many times ideas will flood my mind that I think would make good blog entries, but again, I just never get it to the actual blog.
Then I thought if I had a fabulously designed blog like so many others that I see, maybe that would inspire me to be the "blogger" of my dreams. But truthfully, I know that even if that were to happen, it would not automatically make me a blogger.
Maybe I am being simplistic, but I have decided that blogging for me is going to have to be done like eating an elephant - one bite at a time. Too often, in almost every area of my life, I can dream big and I can even attain all the knowledge to make the dream reality, but in the end if I don't actually "do" it, all I am left with is unrealized dreams.
So, my new goal is to just simply blog about whatever is on my mind, however short it may be, daily. Perhaps as time goes on and I maintain faithfulness in sharing daily, one day I may wake up and realize I have reached my goal of being a real "blogger".
Then I thought if I had a fabulously designed blog like so many others that I see, maybe that would inspire me to be the "blogger" of my dreams. But truthfully, I know that even if that were to happen, it would not automatically make me a blogger.
Maybe I am being simplistic, but I have decided that blogging for me is going to have to be done like eating an elephant - one bite at a time. Too often, in almost every area of my life, I can dream big and I can even attain all the knowledge to make the dream reality, but in the end if I don't actually "do" it, all I am left with is unrealized dreams.
So, my new goal is to just simply blog about whatever is on my mind, however short it may be, daily. Perhaps as time goes on and I maintain faithfulness in sharing daily, one day I may wake up and realize I have reached my goal of being a real "blogger".
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Midweek Musings
Ah- the middle of the week. Before, when it felt like the weekend was different than every other day of my life, I used to look forward to this time of the week. And now with Tom working the weekends, I don't even have that to make the weekends look good.
This week has been especially busy. Classes resumed this week after a week-long spring break and Shelby started a new job, which has put Lindsay & I on more babysitting patrol than usual. Jalen is a pretty good little guy and we have had great weather this week, so he has been pretty content to just ride his little tryke on the deck while we schooled and worked.
I eventually hope to get a daily theme going with this blog, but for now, I am going to include a potpouri of things in each post. I have been interested for almost a year now in making a transition to eating/cooking more healthy and with real foods as opposed to those that the typical doctor tries to tell us is good for us. To that end, I have found a source for my raw milk and also a source for my raw cheese. We are all loving both of those things! So much so that we have even been tossing around the idea of buying our own dairy cow. We won't be able to act on that idea too soon, but it is definitely something we are mulling over. One of the things we are getting ready to venture out on is making our own mozzarella cheese. We have heard from many that there is nothing better and once you make it you won't go back to store bought again.We are excited to try our hand at it.
I think it is amazing to realize that no matter how great "progress" has been for our country, the reality is that we are also a more sicker people than we used to be also. Granted, with the discovery of antibiotics, we have been able to prevent a lot of serious illnesses, and I am grateful for that, but I think we still have a long way to go (or get back to) before we can really be healthy people.
I do plan to take pics of our experiments and test drives as we try out new foods and share about our likes/dislikes as we work on this transition. I hope you will check back often for updates as I sincerely hope to keep this momentum going.
Till the next post!
Donna
This week has been especially busy. Classes resumed this week after a week-long spring break and Shelby started a new job, which has put Lindsay & I on more babysitting patrol than usual. Jalen is a pretty good little guy and we have had great weather this week, so he has been pretty content to just ride his little tryke on the deck while we schooled and worked.
I eventually hope to get a daily theme going with this blog, but for now, I am going to include a potpouri of things in each post. I have been interested for almost a year now in making a transition to eating/cooking more healthy and with real foods as opposed to those that the typical doctor tries to tell us is good for us. To that end, I have found a source for my raw milk and also a source for my raw cheese. We are all loving both of those things! So much so that we have even been tossing around the idea of buying our own dairy cow. We won't be able to act on that idea too soon, but it is definitely something we are mulling over. One of the things we are getting ready to venture out on is making our own mozzarella cheese. We have heard from many that there is nothing better and once you make it you won't go back to store bought again.We are excited to try our hand at it.
I think it is amazing to realize that no matter how great "progress" has been for our country, the reality is that we are also a more sicker people than we used to be also. Granted, with the discovery of antibiotics, we have been able to prevent a lot of serious illnesses, and I am grateful for that, but I think we still have a long way to go (or get back to) before we can really be healthy people.
I do plan to take pics of our experiments and test drives as we try out new foods and share about our likes/dislikes as we work on this transition. I hope you will check back often for updates as I sincerely hope to keep this momentum going.
Till the next post!
Donna
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Sunday Wrap Up
Well, here we are at the end of the weekend and almost the end of the month of March. Time, as usual, is flying by. It feels like we just finished celebrating Christmas and now Easter is upon us.
Several new things are happening in our home/family. Kayla passed one of her final nursing class tests and sent a text messsage telling us to order the cake as she was for sure graduating. LOL As if we ever doubted that. LOL Shelby passed her GED test and starts a new job tomorrow. Tom is slated to return to work in the oil field in May. We are still making the slow transition to get off processed foods and we have found a raw milk supplier as well as a raw cheese supplier. And I am still struggling to adjust to college at the age of 40+. :)
It is still my desire to blog regularly, though I don't know how/if that will ever become reality. Too much of my life seems to be lived in "reaction" rather than "proaction", but I am trying.
Something that a missionary said last week at our church really inspired me. He said "sometimes the road forward is found by going backwards". It is something I have really been pondering on. There are many things that I used to do much better than I do now and I think it was a timely word from the Lord for me to hear that.
So, here's to the end of March and the beginning of April, the end of the weekend and the beginning of a new week. Let's all be and do everything God has for us to do.
Several new things are happening in our home/family. Kayla passed one of her final nursing class tests and sent a text messsage telling us to order the cake as she was for sure graduating. LOL As if we ever doubted that. LOL Shelby passed her GED test and starts a new job tomorrow. Tom is slated to return to work in the oil field in May. We are still making the slow transition to get off processed foods and we have found a raw milk supplier as well as a raw cheese supplier. And I am still struggling to adjust to college at the age of 40+. :)
It is still my desire to blog regularly, though I don't know how/if that will ever become reality. Too much of my life seems to be lived in "reaction" rather than "proaction", but I am trying.
Something that a missionary said last week at our church really inspired me. He said "sometimes the road forward is found by going backwards". It is something I have really been pondering on. There are many things that I used to do much better than I do now and I think it was a timely word from the Lord for me to hear that.
So, here's to the end of March and the beginning of April, the end of the weekend and the beginning of a new week. Let's all be and do everything God has for us to do.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
A Possible Phoenix????
Could it be possible that like a Phoenix, I too could rise from the ashes and have new life? My last post was very depressing was it not? I very much felt at the end of my rope and could not see the hope of anything good in my life again. Of course, that is seldom ever true. Life is always changing and nothing ever stays the same. The bad times always make way for better times and yes, even the better times fade into darker times, but that is just natural. I know that, but when it happens to me, I always tend to forget.
In the past month the Lord has shown me in more ways than one just how very much He is for me and not against me as I sometimes am wont to think. My biggest struggle continues to be putting into practice what I know to do. That is an issue in almost every area of my life too, not just one or two areas. I sometimes feel like I will never get on top of it and really become the person God wants me to be. I struggle with feeling overwhelmed on an almost constant basis and when I know there are specific things He wants me to do, I find myself procrastinating or making excuses for why I don't need to do it "right now". But I really don't want to reach the end of my life and realize that there is no time left to do the things that I had always thought I would get around to doing, you know?
So, how does one go about getting their life on track and getting back on track when they fall off? I should know - I have a bookshelf full of books on organization and prioritizing, etc. I remember someone once saying that they had adopted the Nike slogan for their life motto - "Just Do It". And a wonderful friend of mine told me once that I shouldn't look at the whole picture, just do the "next thing". I think that is what I will start doing - the next thing. It sure sounds good anyway.
Again, I apologize to any who read my last post. I really want to rise above the circumstances of my life and use them instead as stepping stones to get me to the place God has called me to. I know that God has not given up on me and He never will. Even if I give up on myself occassionally, He will always stay with me and pull me from the ashes so to speak and give me new life again to move ahead, ever onward and upward.
To better days ahead!!!!!
In the past month the Lord has shown me in more ways than one just how very much He is for me and not against me as I sometimes am wont to think. My biggest struggle continues to be putting into practice what I know to do. That is an issue in almost every area of my life too, not just one or two areas. I sometimes feel like I will never get on top of it and really become the person God wants me to be. I struggle with feeling overwhelmed on an almost constant basis and when I know there are specific things He wants me to do, I find myself procrastinating or making excuses for why I don't need to do it "right now". But I really don't want to reach the end of my life and realize that there is no time left to do the things that I had always thought I would get around to doing, you know?
So, how does one go about getting their life on track and getting back on track when they fall off? I should know - I have a bookshelf full of books on organization and prioritizing, etc. I remember someone once saying that they had adopted the Nike slogan for their life motto - "Just Do It". And a wonderful friend of mine told me once that I shouldn't look at the whole picture, just do the "next thing". I think that is what I will start doing - the next thing. It sure sounds good anyway.
Again, I apologize to any who read my last post. I really want to rise above the circumstances of my life and use them instead as stepping stones to get me to the place God has called me to. I know that God has not given up on me and He never will. Even if I give up on myself occassionally, He will always stay with me and pull me from the ashes so to speak and give me new life again to move ahead, ever onward and upward.
To better days ahead!!!!!
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